Ok so its nearly a year since things started to go down the toilet really.

Months of no contact, and when first contact was initiated it was minor, pretty much treated things carefull as you would a wounded animal, didn't rush, moved slowly and carefully but like clockwork 2 weeks later its too much for her and she throw her toys out of the cot and dissapears again. I don't think this behavior is really that healthy for her at all... or me for that matter..

Its interesting to see where things have gone since feb 13th when I posted my first entry on this and how things have gone up and down for so long. I am getting to the end of my tollerance and I will no longer allow any of this to happen. time for her to grow up and time for me to let her go and walk away (no matter how hard that might just seem to be.

Part of me would wish she would realise before there is not point of return, and another part of me knows this is the only option left. if I stay I will just be taken for granted really and thats not good.

Love is such a fickle feeling

On a brighter note, just finnished my 2nd masters paper and thats now 2 B+'s for 2 papers. so 2 more paper and a thesis to go and I am done